A (School) Year of Magical Thinking

It’s back to school time and that means for students and college professors alike, especially those who aspire to write, and, like me, teach writing, there is that familiar feeling of excitement, infinite possibility and dread in the air. 

Yay?

I’ve been teaching writing a long time and have been a writer several decades longer, so I’m used to the dread when you know you’re going to be faced with a blank slate, screen or, as it used to be known in the biblically quaint time I grew up in, page.

As for new experiences of those faced with another year in school, that can be at least doubled.

Same, same.

But I also know that the “dread” about it all, as it is with most things, is simply fear of “it” or “you” being bad; fear of failing, being mediocre, or of disappointing, hurting or being hurt in some way.  And that once you’re actually “in it” and “beginning it,” whether it’s a new chapter in life or that dreaded stone tablet page I learned on, there is also an exhilaration that just maybe anything, or everything, is possible.

It’s then that you become various shades of excited, a feeling that you hope will last forever, or at least for the multiple handful of months it takes to complete a project, or full semester or two.

Is this joy?

Of course you know that won’t happen because:

a. Nothing lasts forever (Note: Did I just write that?) and…

b. It’s impossible to hold onto any one feeling that long

But it’s fun to hope, isn’t it?  We humans always have that. Not to mention, the creative possibilities that spring from young minds are exciting, to not only peers but the elders that try, as best they can, to help them work their artistic impulses into their own unique cohesive takes on our current reality.

Me with my college students

Sometimes their work is funny, other times it’s sad but over the years I’ve found it’s almost always somewhere in the middle, often tilting to one side or the other but overall a mix of both. (Note: And the blacker the comedy, the better, I’ve noticed of late).

True, my cross-section of students from an east coast liberal arts college spending a semester in L.A. is not a statistically infallible sample.  But looking back in my mind and through my files (Note: Which are, yes, printed out pages in paper folders), I’ve found they’re a pretty good reflection of what younger people are generally thinking and feeling about the world, how they envision we might resolve our personal conflicts and what they see as the status quo (Note: In dramatic writing parlance it’s called “stasis”) at this particular point in time.

So, do you want to know what they’re thinking this semester?

Let’s begin

Well, they’re writing stories about stopping evil from overtaking the world, surviving in a post-apocalyptic fantasy realm, investigating murder, recovering from abuse, avenging the death of their town and/or loved ones, solving the mystery deaths of a trio of young women, or triumphing in a life of crime after being unfairly fired from a low-paying job they were over-qualified for in the field of their choice.

There were only two “relationship-centered” but they are on people trying to overcome oppressive religious upbringings, pronounced class differences or tribal wars in the 22nd century.

My head is spinning

Some of them propose dark – well, very dark – comedy tones but there was not one you could call particularly uplifting or primarily fun.

Were there always stories like this?  Certainly.  But not this many so consistently.

And, when you think about it – why would there be??? 

Maybe that’s it?

Writers reflect what’s going on in society and I can’t blame any young person who came of age in the last ten years for existing in pillaged fantasy worlds where mere existence is anything but guaranteed.

Nor can I fault them for making circumstances and problems of everyday life so perplexing that the only way to survive is for their characters to live in a world where some degree of magic is accessible.  Not so much sleight of hand, though there is that, but in various degrees of actual magical power.

Certainly there is no logical way, or any way, to solve the issues and the environments the average person is up against these days.

I don’t in any way, shape or form see this as a by-product of them growing up in a Harry Potter-influenced world, if that’s what you’re thinking.

Well I mean…. Ok fine

The only references to Potter that’s come up so far this semester, and also through the last, is their mass disappointment in its author J.K. Rowling for her hurtful, dismissive, dangerous and prejudiced (Note: Their words, not mine) public putdowns of and revulsion towards the trans community. 

See, not a semester goes by these days where they don’t have trans and non-binary identifying students among their classroom peers and they abhor others sh-t talking them, or about them.  The same way they don’t like the sh-t talk about their non-white and/or mixed race peers.  Or women.  Or gay people.  Or… Or… Or…

(Note: Yes, they will sometimes write that a character is seated among a table full of old people and when I ask, how old ,I get answers like, I guess in their forties, or okay, fifties.  But I, who by that definition is really really old, am working on that.  While I still can).

Since I didn’t feel old

Of course, like any younger generation – yours, mine and all those before us – they also abhor a lot of other tangible things about the world as it exists now, and as it’s being handed to them. 

Just like so many more of us feel about our stasis.  More than I’ve seen in many, many years.

But if you think you’re mad about where we’re at in the moment, they’re even madder.  They just do a better job of masking it around you, and likely their peers, and themselves.  It’s what accounts for what they are choosing to write in my class, and to repost on the occasional social media thread (Note: Though nowhere near as much as we do.  I think they’d rather share music or laugh at TikTok content).

Maybe that’s why I still talk about this movie!

Still, the rage, sadness and anger at what’s going on right now, is still there.

At the violence. The deteriorating earth.  The wave of totalitarian oppressiveness worldwide and the economics of everything. The sense that even the U.S. is no longer a safe haven from any of it, if it ever was.

They’re going to be around a lot longer than the rest of us and can’t quite see a way out of it without magic.

… and I don’t blame them!

But one benefit the rest of us who have been around longer have is the knowledge that magic is a relative term that means a lot of things and comes in all kinds of forms.  

Yeah, it can be literal.  But it can also be earthbound and metaphorical.  Practical solutions that seem otherworldly but are anything but, and are hard-won through years of talking and listening and compromise, coupled with  research, discoveries, knowledge and, most importantly, persistence through it all.

You can do it!

I have four months to teach them the many forms magic can take, and inspire them to imagine it into their stories in whatever way they see fit.  That is, along with all of the requisite other stuff.

#WishMeLuck. 

And if you run into anyone their age, try to be encouraging.

The Lovin’ Spoonful – “Do You Believe in Magic”

Freedom

I’ve been a lifelong in your face, but behind-the-scenes hand-wringing, Democrat. 

The kind of neurotic, over-educated, big city, holier-than-thou bleeding heart liberal that gets parodied in a Saturday Night Live sketch, roasted on Fox News or is constantly and very curtly dismissed in opinion pieces on the pages of the Wall Street Journal.

… and my feelings on this are clear

I don’t remember exactly when this started. 

But I do recall how pissed off I was as a young teenager in 1971 when people laughed at the brilliant and black N.Y.C. Congresswoman Shirley Chisolm when she announced she was running for president.

Clearly, she was the smartest person in the race.  And certainly the most honest and decent.

(Note: Though certainly that wasn’t a high bar).

Go Shirley!

Yes, I was too young to vote but how stupid can people be, I proclaimed to anyone who would listen (Note:  Not many).  It’s so obvious Nixon is a lying sleaze!!

When my own Democratic mother insisted she was voting for Nixon because he promised to end the draft and she didn’t want me to die in Vietnam, I didn’t talk to her for a week.

If the Army drafts me, we’re in a lot of trouble, I screamed back at her. 

And I will not be going to Vietnam, trust me.  

I hadn’t revealed my gay card yet.  But I knew. 

Well, here we are several generations later. 

Yep, still gay.

Gays can be in the military,  a woman of color has been nominated by the Democratic party to run for president and, after a barnstorming convention with record-breaking, meme-making viewership, she is right now favored to win by 3.6%.

As for laughing, all we can hear is the natural belly laugh of the candidate, Kamala Harris, the current U.S. Vice President and California’s own former senator and Attorney General, as she shows her party, the country and the world that a politician can be smart, qualified, tough, loving, articulate, strong, ambitious and yes – human – all at the same time. 

Hate on the joy all you want!

Mrs. Chisolm must be laughing somewhere. 

Among other things.

I don’t give myself much credit for knowing as a teenager that someone other than a straight white male could be president.  I was a little kid growing up in the tumultuous sixties and all you really had to do was look around to realize that one day that could be so.

But it sure was nice to watch the Democratic convention this week and see it happen in such an irresistibly, celebratory fashion as you were being proved right.

Yes she can.

Yes, I know.  Not so fast.  She hasn’t won yet. Just as all seemed lost six weeks ago, that’s how quickly this lead, this enthusiasm, this OPTIMISM can disappear.

But can’t we be happy about anything EVER? 

Yes. We. Can.

Bask in the sunshine please!

I won’t recap the record number of unprecedented moments of joy among Democrats over a four-day convention (Note: The previous record must have been two or three vs. what now clearly tallies well into the thousands). 

But I do want to reclaim some of those moments for one overall point of personal privilege.

I realized once and for all after four days of watching the DNC that:

a. I am MUCH more patriotic than I thought.

AND

b. I don’t at all mind a sports metaphor.  It simply depends on who is using it.  And why.

yay sports!

Yes, it would be so much more fun to talk about Barack Obama cracking a thinly-veiled d-ck joke re: Trump’s crowd size, or Michelle Obama down and dirty wondering aloud, in her best south side of Chicago accent re: his 2024 presidential run: …Who’s gonna tell him that the job he is currently seeking might just be one of those “Black jobs?”

But they say it so much better than I do.  And it’s available on You Tube.

Barack (7:30):

Michelle (11:30):

Instead, I have to confess that it was VP nominee, Coach Tim Walz who made me see it wasn’t so much that I hated playing team sports at school, which fueled a life-long annoyance at pretty much any team sports analogy under the sun.

It was that I loathed every high school gym teacher and sports coach I ever encountered in real life until I “met” him – the guy who not only coached football AND taught social studies, (Note: Not health ed!)  but served as faculty advisor to the gay/straight alliance at the high school where he worked.

Coach!

I don’t know that Kyle Chandler’s beloved (Note: Even by me) Coach Eric Taylor on Friday Night Lights would have done that, and he was a fictional character.

So when Tim Walz started to close out his acceptance speech for Vice President by stating:

Team, it’s the fourth quarter, we’re down a field goal, but we’re on offense and we’ve got the ball. We’re driving down the field. And, boy, do we have the right team, I was all in. 

Yay sports!

And when he ended by sayingOur job for everyone watching—is to get in the trenches and do the blocking and tackling: one inch at a time. One yard at a time, one phone call at a time, one door knock at a time, one $5 donation at a time. …Look, we got 76 days. That’s nothing. There’ll be time to sleep when you’re dead. We’re going to leave it on the field! I was sold.

GO TEAM GOOOOOOOO

Yes, it helped that my beloved aunt in New York City also used to say you’ll have plenty of time to sleep when you’re dead  to little whiny me when I balked at doing something hard, but that’s not the only reason.

As for over-the-top patriotism, anyone who came of age under Nixon, or more recently, Trump, has probably had a difficult time with it. 

Too often the empty gestures of in-your-face flag-waving or a robust hand over your heart when the national anthem played was the measure of a patriot. And protesting the actions of your country, your president, your lawmakers or the actual laws themselves meant you were a…traitor?… a Commie?… a Soviet/Russia spy?

Me?

Well, the tables have certainly been turned on all that, and most particularly on the latter, in this presidential race, haven’t they?

That’s how a new patriotism coined by Vice President Harris in her nominating speech – one that not only moved me but, I suspect, millions of others who knew in their hearts it wasn’t a song, a salute or the stars and stripes that made a patriot yet never had the right words to say exactly what did – came across:

In her own words

I… see an America where we hold fast to the fearless belief that built our nation and inspired the world. That here, in this country, anything is possible. That nothing is out of reach.  An America where we care for one another, look out for one another and recognize that we have so much more in common than what separates us. That none of us — none of us has to fail for all of us to succeed.  And that in unity, there is strength. You know, our opponents in this race are out there every day denigrating America, talking about how terrible everything is. Well, my mother had another lesson she used to teach: Never let anyone tell you who you are. You show them who you are.

America, let us show each other and the world who we are and what we stand for: Freedom, opportunity, compassion, dignity, fairness and endless possibilities.

We are the heirs to the greatest democracy in the history of the world. And on behalf of our children and our grandchildren and all those who sacrificed so dearly for our freedom and liberty, we must be worthy of this moment.  It is now our turn to do what generations before us have done, guided by optimism and faith, to fight for this country we love, to fight for the ideals we cherish and to uphold the awesome responsibility that comes with the greatest privilege on Earth: the privilege and pride of being an American. So let’s get out there, let’s fight for it. Let’s get out there, let’s vote for it, and together, let us write the next great chapter in the most extraordinary story ever told.

(Full speech here)

I didn’t write it, I didn’t say it, but for the first time in a long time I finally felt it.

Beyonce (ft. Kendrick Lamar) – “Freedom”