Truth Hurts (but not really)

It is estimated Donald Trump has told more than 20,000 lies since he became the president of the United States.

I can’t do much about any of them. 

But the one thing I can do is to not let him make me into a liar.

The Chairy is better at the truth!

Trump has COVID-19, the potentially lethal virus he’s mask-lessly, and very purposely, downplayed to the rest of us for months. (Note: So far 210,000 Americans dead and 7.3 million infected).

Just how bad it is depends on who and what you believe.  But let’s put it this way, it was bad enough for him to be helicoptered to the hospital on Friday, reportedly after having trouble breathing and receiving oxygen. 

Airlifted to a nearby hospital? Totally normal, nothing to see here #WHAT

Right now this is where he sits, or lies, at Walter Reed Medical Center, benefitting (Note: Or not, how would you know for sure?) from top of the line, world-class medical treatment on the public dole.

Since then the man who refused to wear a mask and social distance – so far the prime protocols the medical establishment has urged us all to follow in order to prevent this potential killer– the protocols that he shamed Democrats, the media and, in fact, his own followers and personal staff working beside him for following – has received worldwide well-wishes, support and concern.

Ah, the old standby of “thoughts and prayers”

People are literally flooding him and falling all over themselves with public thoughts and prayers.  In particular, his opponents on Capitol Hill, on TV, and in any big industry, have prefaced their remarks about him and any issue regarding him by saying a myriad of creative and well-constructed platitudes.

They range from everything like:

Clearly, WE ALL wish the president a speedy recovery, to

As Americans we all want our president to be healthy, and on towards,

I think we can all safely say our hope is for, as soon as possible, President Trump to be safely back at work and behind the resolute desk where we can then disagree.  It’s what we, as American, are all praying for.

Hmm.  Well, given my lifelong penchant for honesty I gotta tell y’all the truth –

Not so much and not this American.

Yeah, I said it

I’m not proud of that, nor, am I ashamed of it.  I’m only offering it up as my absolute, unvarnished reality in the hopes of, in turn, setting us all free.

As humans we’re all imperfect and pretending to be otherwise doesn’t really get us anywhere.  I don’t wish Trump death, as I’ve read and privately/publicly heard others saying.  I just don’t wish him well, about anything. 

Pretty much this exactly

Yeah, I might save him from a burning building because I’m a human being but no, I wouldn’t risk my own life to do so.

We all decide what is a bridge too far for us and then attempt to do better if we believe we’re lacking.

I don’t think it helps anything or anyone to, um, make stuff up because it’s, um, beneficial to us in the moment.  Lies beget lies, which begets bad behavior, which in turn begets horrible power grabs and many more lies and consequences.

Isn’t that the way we got into this mess in the first place? That place where we pretty much don’t know whom or in what to believe?

She tried to warn us. #Hillaryforgiveus #actuallydont #dontdeserveyou

Perhaps one day I will evolve (or devolve, depending on your view) to be the kind of person strong enough to turn the other cheek at someone I have watched gleefully cause so many to suffer without batting a painted-on eyelash or eyebrow. But honestly, with this guy, right now, I’m not anywhere near that.

Nor are so many others I know and know of, despite what they are publicly espousing.  

This doesn’t necessarily make us evil, or even evil geniuses, just people who might be able to one day do better.  (Note: Or not.  It depends on what your definition of better is).

Guilty

But for right now, as someone recently, and most honestly, admitted (Note: And it’s one of the rare times he’s done so):

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

When it comes to abusive behavior towards others and innate meanness, when it involves rallying white supremacists to come out into the streets armed and intimidate everything good and free about law-abiding citizens just wanting to cast their votes or even protest, my well-wishing tends to be a bit more…measured.  Meaning it leans towards the oppressed and endangered.

When it comes to sympathy, my kind thoughts don’t extend to those who are sitting on several billion dollars in assets, paying zero in taxes and then publicly bragging about it to people who live in one and two room apartments.

Please enjoy your socialized medicine while you’re at it

When it comes to my heart, well, it doesn’t involve someone who knows they have been exposed to a potentially lethal virus and yet exposes hundreds or even thousands of people to it in order to rake in more money to support their political ambitions or, perhaps, even to infect the very person they’re running for office against.

When it comes to prayers, the first or even thousandth person on my list is not someone who confabbed and giggled and yeah, colluded with world leaders who seek the destruction of my country in order to get elected to the highest office in the land.  And it certainly doesn’t include a guy who used said office to make himself and his family business tens of millions of dollars in the process.

And that’s only the half of it

I could go on and on, gosh knows there is evidence and more than enough time these days.  But I think there’s enough here for you to fill in the rest.  If not, google non-white children separated from their parents, put in cages, and never returned to them on the U.S. border and see what you come up with.

People like to think of Trump as some sort of all-powerful superhero/villain (Note: Depending on where they stand) or an exceptional kind of evil geniusBut I don’t.  Sorry Michael Moore.

Right now I consider him nothing more than a sick, fat old man who has a lot of power but no conscience.  Someone who is street clever and will stop at nothing to stay in the presidency so he doesn’t have to face criminal charges in court like a regular citizen and possibly go to jail, or at the very least pay millions of dollars he likely doesn’t have accessible to him, in back taxes.

I need to find a hillside to scream at the top of my lungs

Someone I find just plain sad and mean and, yes, for now, regrettably with more power than many.  Kind of like, as I said to one friend recently, a really mean Oz.  But what’s behind the curtain is not a superpower, just a super liar who temporarily controls the levers of some earthly powers.

Someone who is dangerous but not omnipotent, as recent events prove.

This is why I can’t and don’t wish him my bestright now.  Nor do I wish him back on the job as his good ‘ole self in the near or even distant future.

What I prefer is for him to have a time out, sit in a hospital corner and have a good long think about what he’s done.  Like the child that he is.

Where is this balloon these days?

It probably won’t make a bit of difference but it’s the best that I, and many like me, can offer or feel at this point in time.

He’s not in my thoughts, among my hopes or anywhere near my heart, thank God. 

This doesn’t make me a bad person.  Just an honest one.

Lizzo – “Truth Hurts”

A Very Chairy Nightmare

This is what it’s been like for me:

Last night I dreamt that a guy named Hampton, or Harrington, with a portfolio in his hand and a hat cocked to the side of his head as if he was an old time reporter – think conservative writer Matt Drudge – came to my door trying to sell me something.

You know the type

I instantly backed away because he wasn’t wearing a mask.

But he kept talking and, when he saw I wasn’t responding to some right wing or religious claptrap he was peddling, he reached his arm out to jam the door and blurted out incredulously,

Wait, you haven’t heard of me????

I then gave him one of my famous eye rolls (Note: Okay, two) and slammed the door in his face.

My heart was beating fast and I was pissed!

This demented, unknown asshole —  how dare he infiltrate my safe space!

NOW!

Never mind this was my old apartment, located on the ground floor of a duplex from the sixties, that I haven’t lived in for 10 years.

Anyway, I turned from the door and went through the living room and then around the corner, past my bedroom, and through the hall to my home office, where I see Hampton, or Harrington, or whoever the f-k he claimed to be, actually crawling through my floor-to-ceiling door/window.

How he got it open, I have no idea, since as I recall there were bars on all those windows.  But these type of people, well, as we all know too well after the last four years, they have their ways, right?

If only Clooney was in this dream…

In any event, there I go running into the room where somehow this little sh-t has now somehow gotten his foot through the glass, ready to push him out and break the glass and sever his presumptuous soon to be dangling limb, if need be.

But before I can do anything I notice right next to him this cute little young woman, sitting at a large table she’s set up on the landing next to my doorway.  It’s got a large colorful tablecloth with a gorgeous set up of orange juice, muffins, teacakes, coffee, lemonade and the like, and she’s commandeered my entire area, ready to sell or perhaps even give it all away to a line of very clean-looking smiley people from, I’m guessing Indiana or some such Midwest state, certainly not West Hollywood, which is where my apartment was located.

A real Anna Camp type

I look at this woman, also mask-less and unsurprisingly sunny blonde, and think what the f-ck, but she just stares at me with this Up With People sort of smile and gestures to the o.j. and muffins.

Despite how good they look (Note:  Yeah, I have to admit that) I say to her almost tongue-tied:

What???  You can’t be here.  What are you doing here????

Hello? Hello?

Meanwhile, Hampton’s long leg has now almost touched the floor in my office, as I’m pressing the glass door closed against him and start yelling:

Get out!  Get out!   GET.   THE F-CK.   OUT!!!!!!!!

And then….

Well, I can’t tell you if I won or lost because then…

I WOKE.   THE F-CK.    UP.

But is it really?

Of course, missing from this dream was my husband of almost 32 years, who was living with me in that apartment.  God knows where those people stashed him.

Also gone was any semblance of anyone else to help me.  All that I saw was the phony sunshine being offered by these charlatans from a demented world that people were lining up to buy into in droves.

Does any of this sound, well, familiar?

Drink that Kool Aid

As I watched  Donald Trump this weekend immorally and probably illegally nominate someone who will arguably be the most conservative person ever to occupy a seat on the US Supreme Court, Amy Coney Barrett, I couldn’t help but reconsider, in light of this dream, what I secretly thought about myself at several points in my childhood when I had feelings about things that, in a matter of time, would turn out to actually happen:

I have ESP!

Open 24 hours

Then I realized the ugly truth.  I’m not special and I’d bet all 65 million of us have at times in the last four years been having various versions of this very same…well, let’s just call it as it is…nightmare.

Amy Coney Barrett, as well as the young girl at the breakfast table, and even Hampton or Harrington, might seem perfectly sunny to hang out with.  In fact, this would be especially so as long as they bring those muffins and orange juice and we have all taken a cup of Instant Smile in order to avoid talking about anything meaningful aside from their glistening and hypnotizing, well, cleanliness.

Follow the light Carol Anne!

But if we dare to blink our eyes a few times or, god/gosh forbid, think, it quickly becomes clear that what we’re really feasting on is, in reality, the beginning of our own demise.  The homogenization of difference.  The demonization and illegalization of the essence of who most of the 65 million of us are, or certainly believe in.

Ms. Barrett and Mr. Trump smiled a great game from the Rose Garden Saturday afternoon.  Heck, so did even  Kellyanne Conway and Fox News’ Laura Ingraham from the audience, and when was the last time you could say that about the latter?

She looks better than I thought #shade

But make no mistake.  If you are female, if you are LGBTQ, if you are not guided by religion, if you are non-white, OR if you are at all an ally in any sort of way of any of the aforementioned above, you should be more than alarmed.

Not to mention, you can also now count yourself, as allies, among that infamous 65 million of 2016 whose beliefs and lives will truly be in peril. (Note: aka The Majority).

I won’t go through all the many ways we should be panicked at the nomination and likely immoral confirmation of this woman.  Read these links and simply let the facts do it for you:

Exhibit A

Exhibit B

Exhibit C

Exhibit D

Blessed be the fruit

But what I will do is encourage you all to remember that though dreams and nightmares are personal works of fiction, they spring from the reality of your mind.

Now more than ever in the next five weeks heading up to this election it’s important that each and every one of us trust in our minds, in our own ways of thinking, and especially in our own instincts on impending danger, and take any actions available to save ourselves, our compatriots and, most of all, even our fellow citizens/enemies from the worst of themselves.

Or shall I say, all of ourselves???

Alice Cooper – “Welcome to My Nightmare”