The One and Only David Lynch

David Lynch, one of the most creative and original American filmmakers we will ever know, died this week and it prompted numerous conversations between my husband and me about his work.  They weren’t profound analyses but more reminiscences of our gleeful shared reactions of awe to the signature style and singular way he told stories in each successive piece of work. For us, the first time seeing a Lynch film was always an exciting, brain-breaking experience, partly because there was no telling where he would go or if you could even fully understand where it was he took you after just one viewing.

Hang on ladies!

Blue Velvet and Mulholland Drive were his most lauded and our favorites, but there is also something to be said for Lost Highway (Note: Robert Blake popping up from out of nowhere to haunt you takes on new meaning in the 21st century), Wild At Heart, The Elephant Man, Eraserhead  (Note: His mind-bending first film, which prompted producer Mel Brooks to recruit and fight for him to direct one of Lynch’s most traditional and excellent movies, The Elephant Man) and The Straight Story. 

And where do you start with the original Twin Peaks TV series and all of the various incarnations of that world?  Can you imagine that this was a weekly show on ABC in 1990?   Before the explosion of cable programming, and at a time when the term streaming was basically used to describe a state of consciousness? 

We’d dance with you in the Black Lodge anyday

None of my students can, and to this day many of them are huge fans of the show.  Though when I try to explain how both its audaciousness and Lynch’s determination to have it remain in a fugue state amid so many unanswered questions that drove network executives completely bonkers, they do usually meet me with a Twin Peaks worthy half-smile.

That is, of course, the real victory.  That somehow the idea of this kind of boundary breaking insurgence that so annoys the gatekeepers (Note: Especially when it becomes so provocatively successful) will continue, albeit in a different form. 

I wonder what the network had to say about Log Lady

Granted, that’ll take a bit of time.  Which is what must’ve prompted my husband to say at the end of our Lynch discussion, “We should just push pause for the next four years.”   

Among other things.

my inner thoughts

Speaking of which, I decided that the first film my thesis screenwriting students would view this semester would be Blue Velvet, the breakout film that cemented Lynch’s visually alluring, darkly comic and disturbingly dramatic approach to creating a narrative you at times wanted to but couldn’t look away from. 

On the surface it’s a boy-meets-girl story that starts when a college boy, who is home visiting his sick father, finds a severed ear among the many blades of grass in a field near his house and decides to bring it to a detective that turns out to be father of said perfectly wholesome teenage, blonde, hometown high school girl. 

with the great Laura Dern and Kyle MacLachlan

Naturally, they’re both warned time and time again to leave the real crime behind this ear alone, if for nothing else than the sake of their reputations.  But like almost every film before it about such people, they can’t.  Sure, they may be good, (Note: Perhaps too good) at heart but that’s the real issue.  What Lynch posits is that even the good among us are curious about the bad and, on the right day, might even indulge in a bit, or even a lot, of the bad.  Especially when we’re teenagers.  So these two decide to take it upon to themselves to investigate and what they uncover in their small town is a whole lot of bad that, up until that point, we’ve seldom been shown in such iconoclastic, nightmarish and yet bizarrely believable detail by a mainstream American filmmaker to, at times, such strangely comic effect.

I was privileged to be at one of the first screenings of Blue Velvet in L.A. 38 years ago (Note: Yikes!  And… Yikes!!) I took a friend and we knew nothing about it other than it was a mystery. 

And yes, those were the days when you actually could know absolutely nothing about a movie by a major filmmaker.

Definitely wasn’t expecting this

No spoilers at all but for those who don’t know it begins with slow motion shots of a small town where everything is a bit off and almost artificial, as if John Waters and Fritz Lang had a child, named it Lynch (Note: This would be possible under a full moon in a Twin Peaks adjacent world) and decided to give it carte blanche creative control of an opening sequence.

A lawn mower accident in a 1950s town that exists in the 1980s with period-looking people who speak in halting, stilted dialogue out of a B-movie melodrama?   It was hilariously bad in a purposeful way but most of the audience didn’t know what to make of it.  Yet my friend and I couldn’t stop cracking up and had to stifle chuckles that we were sure Lynch himself would have approved of because of all the dirty looks we were getting from those around us. 

God, Laura Dern’s cry face is iconic

But it didn’t matter because as the film unfolded my friend and I quieted down naturally since what we were seeing was like nothing we’d ever seen before, especially at a Hollywood screening, and, by the end, we were not necessarily sure if we wanted to see it again.  Themes of rape, drugs, sadism, violence, with smatterings of raw, offensive language no major studio head would willingly give a green light to.  Except, well, it was all to a point, in service of something and, let’s face it, a small group of people…somewhere… had to have approved. 

Lucky for all of us. 

Nothing could be better than entering his strange and wonderful world

By the time the film was over not only did my friend and I want to see it again but, after its release, so would millions more filmgoers.  Not to mention, Blue Velvet would also go on to win many major critic awards, land on numerous top 10 best lists and become the cult favorite of the year, eventually winning Lynch (who also wrote the screenplay) his second Academy Award nomination as Best Director. 

I watched the movie again last night (Note: My fifth or sixth viewing since its 1986 release) and, once more, I was fascinated, upset, amused and extremely uncomfortable.  But sadly I also wasn’t sure if any director in Hollywood could get away with it today.  Maybe an indie person somewhere, but would it even gain any sort of mainstream acceptance before being deemed problematic, demeaning, offensive, triggering and cancelled?

I’m not sure.

There really will never be another

What I do know is that its incorrectness was used to shine a light on the disturbing, the ugly, the tawdry, the overlooked and the self-righteousness of unexamined societal goodnessA David Lynch-told story, to me, always served as a bit of a disinfectant.  As if to say, no one and nothing is THIS TRULY GOOD, and yes, the world can be quite that BAD.  But none of it will go away if we bury it.  We need to confront it – them – the baddies – out in the open and risk our reputations in order to come out the other side with insight.  At least that will give us enough familiarity with the bad to recognize it and perhaps prevent it from happening if we ever see it again.

My words, not his.

The many worlds of Mr. Lynch

What I love most about Lynch’s work is that he asks you to give yourself permission to go through the darkness and not be repelled by it.  To tolerate the quixotic because, like life, not everything gets instantly answered or is made apparent for you.  It needs to be absorbed, over time and through various moods, endured until the totality of it slides open a window of understanding that finally allows you to say, Oh, I get it.  Now, I get it.. I finally get it.

This is why I just decided I’m showing Blue Velvet to not one, but two, classes this semester and why I will probably get crap about it from someone.  It may not be p.c. on the surface but it’s the most p.c. journey you will take overall.  It doesn’t hide what it is but, at the end of the day, is an advocate for good, in all of its tawdriness.  Meaning actual, real life good – not some technicolor movie version of it.

Would that our 2025 world could be that way.  Well, it can be.  Lynch gave us a sort of existential playbook of self-discovery that we can watch over and over and over again to guide us.   Though the end of time.  As opposed to the end times.

Isabella Rossellini – “Blue Velvet”

It’s the Movies for Me

Sometimes I’m astounded at the impact movies have made on my life and the inordinate amount of time I’ve spent watching them.

This is particularly surprising to me because as I kid I watched a lot more TV than films and in my early teen years certainly spent more time obsessing about singer-songwriters and their relentless existential introspections. (Note: I came of age in the early seventies when this was all the rage).

Just me and Joni hanging in Topanga Canyon

Ditto Broadway musicals. 

I am not going to once again write about my Dad telling me he would get us tickets to see anything I chose for my 11th birthday as my first experience at the theatre (Note: A rarity since my family went practically nowhere as a group and my Dad and I had even less than that in common). 

Or that somehow I chose Mame.  Ahem.

Ang was my spirit animal

I will only comment to future 11 year olds that my father likely knew me better than I thought.  Or, at least was trying.

Yet somehow this all shifted as I became an adult.  Sure, I remember having my life changed when I saw Mary Poppins as a kid on the big screen or how I looked forward to the then only once-a-year showing of The Wizard of Oz on TV (Note: Yeah, that was also a thing).

OK but it didn’t look THIS good

Or the time young teenage me found Lana Turner’s Madame X on NYC’s Million Dollar Movie (Note: Channel 9 or Channel 11, I can only recall they showed it all day and night) and I obsessively watched it four times in a row.

Ahem.  

Times 12.    

Even the poster is DRAMA

And let’s hear it for the sensitive, overly-theatrical lads. 

But that’s not what I’m talking about.

There was some moment where movies began speaking to me most personally.  A time when the immersive experience of sitting alone in your thoughts at a movie theatre, yet surrounded by people who for me, most of the time, might not as well have been there but luckily were there, supplanted everything.

How it felt

Part of it might have been the waiting in line (Note: I can still remember three plus hours in freezing cold Manhattan waiting for tickets to The Exorcist and bonding with a ton of waaay cooler people than myself also desperate to be scared “to death.”).

But more likely it was that films had a way of making everything bigger and more important than anything else in the world because they were literally HUGE. 

So I learned pretty quickly that movies could address your fears, your hurts and your yearning for happiness, albeit in a somewhat ironic, funny yet loving way and SUPERSIZE your personal concerns in a way that you KNEW they deserved to be.

Almost like they’d come out and bite ya

Films were way better than real life.  They BECAME real life.  Or real life experiences, at any rate.  I often found that for those who didn’t understand me fully, I could simply recommend a film that dealt with my “issues” and refer it to them to watch if they wanted to know in a very real sense what truly concerned me.

It wasn’t the be all or end all.  But at least it was a starting point.

I’d forgotten about this because in the last few decades movies, as a whole, have changed a lot.  Oh, of course there are still great films, meaningful films, and every year there are more than a handful that speak to me personally.

but otherwise..

But it wasn’t until my friend Ray Morton reached out to me via Facebook in a challenge where you have to publicly post ONE MOVIE IMAGE per day for 10 straight days with NO COMMENT (Note: The latter being the toughest part for moi), that I began to once again recognize the impact of the films I chose.

Maybe impact is not the correct word because it wasn’t so much that I was shaped by them.  It was that I felt they represented me or that somehow they saw me or read my mind at a particular place in time.  I didn’t plan ANY of my picks, I just posted what came to me that day.  But as I peruse the list on this final day of the assignment I’m astounded by the personal resonance of the list.

duh!

It’s not that these are the best movies I’ve ever seen (Note: Though they are pretty great), that I couldn’t name ten more that were ever better, or more sophisticated, or more dramatic, or funnier, or more….more, more, more. 

I could.   And you could.

But I stand by my list because in a purely knee jerk, visceral sense they are there for a reason.  They are, or were, ME.

The Way We Were finally made me realize it is not enough to love someone, or for them to love you, for a relationship to survive.  (Note: And it only took me eight viewings over 20 years to get that).

Strangers On A Train showed me that I was not as crazy I thought and that if I thought my family was really crazy, well, think again.

Blue Velvet taught me you can write serious movies and be as sick and funny and twisted as you like as long as you’re committed to your world and your characters.

… and all it took was a severed ear

Women On The Verge of a Nervous Breakdown made the newly humorless and bereft me laugh for the first time in a long time amid all the death and condemnation and destruction at the height of the AIDS crisis.

The Godfather provided the gold standard of storytelling for an aspiring storyteller and made me confident that my obsession with dysfunctional family dynamics had nothing to do with being Jewish and gay.

add in unforgettable lines too

Brokeback Mountain allowed me to cry (A LOT) and appreciate what I had and was likely in peril of taking for granted.

BlacKkKlansman made me angrier than I’ve been since the eighties about how f-cked up the U.S is; showed the absolute default privilege you get (Note: I got) for being white; and reinforced my constant desire to waterboard (Note: But not kill, that would be too nice) every person supporting the orange sh-t stain.

Rosemary’s Baby brings back just how much I still  love the visuals of the sixties and why, deep down, I was right to be suspicious of almost everybody.

This is evergreen

Harold and Maude told me your teachers and lovers always appear when you least expect it and in the strangest of ways.

and

La La Land is an endless, dizzying, constantly morphing dream of too many things to count, many of which you are likely not to achieve in the way you thought, certainly not in Hollywood.  But that there are far worse things than being a dreamer.  And nothing better.

Cass Elliot – “Dream A Little Dream of Me”